1. |
Redundancy of Role
02:43
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Who am I?
I’ve been defined by peers
for what I do
But not for who I am
Overlooked identity
Without a purpose
Without a cause
I seek to serve
Crushed by the weight of expectation
A destiny deserved
A traveller with no destination
Why?
What’s my purpose intrinsically?
Panic hits instantly
What am I doing in life?
Surely there’s more to this than
Servitude and corporate greed
I seek to serve
Crushed by the weight of expectation
A destiny deserved
A traveller with no destination
I writhe!
Twisting and contorting
Into shapes
Previously unknown
To my mind
Suddenly I’m evolving
I am changing
Altered I
Reach into the cosmos
Into myself
Finding what was
Already there
Suddenly I’m evolving
I’m not changing
It was inside
It was inside
All along
I never needed another soul
It was inside
It was inside
All along
So freeing
It was inside
It was inside
All along
Now I’ve finally found a home
It was inside
It was inside
All along
So freeing
No matter how we flee
We cannot escape our identity
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2. |
Sophie's Pro-Choice
02:57
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What are you so afraid of?
With your bloodshot eyes…
Crying crocodile tears
For the rights of the right
What are you so afraid of?
That you’ll be whisked away…
Dragged out, kicking and screaming
In a leftist apocalypse!
Go deepthroat a fucking crucifix
And wash it down with communion
If those are truly your values
Cuz on the off chance that you are right
And Jesus Christ comes down on judgement day
All you pseudo-christians are gonna have hell to pay
And if there is a hell, I'd rather be there
than a heaven that you create
Profiting off anguish and forever fuelling hate
What good are your family values
When children drown to escape from war?
If you hate your neighbor who's different
What the fuck are you good for?
Your messiah would have hated
Everything you are
Head full of hatred
And a heart as black as tar
Run on home
And cry
Say I’m wrong
Say I’m bad
Say that God’s
Got your back
Back your hate
With more lies
NO MORE LIES!
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3. |
A Drowning Smile
07:38
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How long
Has it been this way?
I can no longer tell
If it's been ages or days
Colours start to blend
As every day feels exactly the same
Slowly sucked into
A black hole
Terrified
Yet apathetic all at once
All the time in the world and time stands still
With an ever growing void to fill
Can’t wait to be free
All the time in the world and time stands still
With an ever growing void to fill
Crippling fear of the aftermath
No pressure
Yet crushed by the lack of it
A deep sea creature
Afraid of the dark
All the time in the world and time stands still
With an ever growing void to fill
Can’t wait to be free
All the time in the world and time stands still
With an ever growing void to fill
Crippling fear of the aftermath
Confined within the four walls of home
No one to be, nowhere to go
Every day amounts to
Talkin’ bout nothing, to no one.
When does home stop being home
becomes a prison
Where no one stops you from leaving
Yet you don’t go out
For nothing, or no one
Rinse and repeat
Nauseating
Solitary relief
A drowning smile
Takes shape underneath
Stuck somewhere between nothing and no one
Oblivious or just destined to fail
Agora- and claustrophobic
All at once
Can't stand the safety
Of this crumbling kingdom
Hyperfocus kicking in
Perhaps it's not bad that I’ve got time
to think for the first time in years
A chance to introspect, assess and
Reach a conclusion that maybe a
New normal is what we need
I've never felt so
Unsure about anything
My hopes and fears
Drawn and quartered
At least uncertainty
means nothing's been decided
Endless possibilities
I'm in control
My kingdom
Goes from wall to wall
Within it I can do
Anything at all
Not imprisoned
No shackles, no fear
Without expectations
No pressure, no peers
Freedom in limitation
I’ll never go back
To the way
It was
Rinse and repeat
Self-fulfilling
Solitary relief
A drowning smile
Takes shape underneath
Stuck somewhere between nothing and no one
Oblivious or just destined to fail
Agora- and claustrophobic
All at once
Can't stand the safety
Of this crumbling kingdom
Just because you’re alone
Locked inside a prison of your own mind
Your own home
Doesn’t mean you can’t have a little fun, right?
I beg
For a new paradigm
Not asking for paradise
Just something that's
Not quite so
Unrelenting
Never ending
Overwhelming
Catatonic
Constantly in motion
Haven’t moved an inch in months
Hyperactive and docile
Pulling myself up
Would require anti-gravity
Someone take me away from this place
So long, stuck in this
Comfort zone of misery
Can’t help but feel
This is exactly where I belong
Left behind
Lay awake
Thinking back to a life with dreams
Stay awake
At least the living nightmare’s real
Lay awake
Sleep has nothing to offer but another day
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4. |
Forever For Now
05:39
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Who’s to blame
I can’t get away
From this place
Walking in circles
Over and over
Again and again
I know
Change
Comes from within me
How do I move on
When my problem is
me
We meet again,
Face to face in the mirror
Yet another talk
A monologue
An attempt for
something better
Or different at least
I know
The past
The past cannot change
For us
But maybe we can
Take steps
To right what’s been wronged
Before
Perhaps
If you’d gotten help
If you had spared yourself
This pain
You could have spared me.
The hurt you bear
It’s a heavy cross
We have to work with what we’ve got
And forget about what’s not....there
I know
Change
Will not come easily
We have to move on
To find something better
Than this
Would I even know who we’d be
If we were whole?
Could we ever start again?
Snap out of it and see
That this is not
All you’re meant to be
That goes for the both of us
We both have to be better than this
But there’s still hope
for us to find a better way
to move on
Not just survive
But thrive
Fuck that’s cliche
that’s trite
Sleepwalking
Away from a nightmare
Attempting
To numb what isn’t there
Sleepwalking
Self medicated
An attempt
Suddenly years are gone
Wake up
Where did the time go?
Where are you now?
Are you happy?
Was it all
Worth it in the end?
All of those memories
Lost in a fog
I know
Change isn’t easy
But I’m in a better place
For now
I got help
And I’m not sorry
Free from this generational curse
I’m finally free from the shame
The pain that still haunts you
Worlds apart and that’s
how we’ll stay
I had to go my own way
Keeping a distance
forever for now
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5. |
Delete The Elite
04:15
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All of your fear and hate are simply lies
Sold to you by false prophets
Making a profit from regular folk like you
Buying their snake oil
Padding their pockets with all your cash
Yet they're not the parasite
Be afraid of the others
Fearful and feeble
Easier to control
Never rising above
Never questioning the shit
They feed you
Crawl
On your hands and knees
Begging for scraps from the rich and famous
All
That you’ll ever get is their
Premium brand of hate
Subject
Loyal to their power
Eating up every word
Hungry for more
As long as they have pull
They’ll use it to push progress away
Whoa!
Aren’t you all that
With your
“white men can’t even talk no more” facade?
Trying desperately
To play the victim
Cuz then you can do no wrong!
Sold conspirituality by worthless hacks
Who knew you would buy it
Your ignorance crystalises
As the pendulum counts us down
You’re
A poster child for a failed education
No one taught you empathy
So you think anyone different’s
Your enemy
Fuck off
You bigoted homophobe
Preaching love while
Ignoring progress
Worthless
No one will mourn your loss
in the long run
Wrong side of history
HISTORY
Human duty dereliction
It is time for your extinction
Prepare for your end is coming
Nothing will stop our uprising
Try to hide
But your history will reveal
What fate you’ve brought upon yourself
With your actions, your words,
Your general lack of even trying to understand
What it’s like to be anyone else but you
You have no one else to blame for this
You were always gonna pay for this
One way or the other
You were always gonna pay for this
Freedom of speech doesn’t protect you from
Consequences of your diatribe
Vitriol was the fuel that fanned your flame
Now you’re gonna burn upon the stake
All the rich men are reapers
But even dead gods may dream
Through your cycles of extinction
You will not reap me
For I refuse to lie down
And take it like a slave
No gods, no masters
I will never obey
Somewhere, in your heart,
Is there kindness to be found?
Or is it rotten,
Buried underground?
I guess time will tell
Or make fools of us all
But I hope I’ll be there
To watch your empire fall.
I’ll be there to watch your empire fall.
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6. |
Colony Collapse
04:52
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Slow but sure
The rise of tide and temperature
We look the other way
While we’re slowly pushed to boil
We’re all so aware
Yet we pray for the bliss of ignorance
Not to stare
Up the barrel
We burn
beyond repair
brightly
Not willing to
Compromise or share
If this planet dies
We die with it
Without us
Earth would be fine
So burn
Have it your way
Watch the future collapse
Growing inequity
Cruelty and war
The rich keep the resources
Hungry are all
Dead in the streets
Mass grave earth
A whole generation
Stillbirth
Wash away
The sins of the past
And drown the sinners too
For they know who they are
They know what they do
And they never cared about you!
Once it falls
They’ll milk it for profit
To fund their own exodus
None for all
Millions will perish
We’re nothing to them
Cataclysmic collapse
Is imminent
How many of us must die
Before you’ll rise up
And take earth back?
They are
Modern day slavers
They are
The scourge of the earth
They own
The entire system
So burn it to the ground
Rise from the ashes
We will
Either rise or die
We can’t
Stay silent or neutral
Our lives
Are at stake
So tear it all down, make a difference
Wash away
The sins of the past
And drown the sinners too
For they know who they are
They know what they do
And they never cared about you!
Bring out the guillotine
It’s time for a change
If it’s us or them
Let’s get ahead
Bring out the guillotine
Your crimes will be punished
Swiftly
Bring out the guillotine
We the people
Have decreed
Your redundancy
Bring out the guillotine
Nothing left to say
Your days are numbered
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7. |
Bridges Burnt
02:13
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Writing, revising, trying to explain
Editing, rephrasing, an attempt to convey (I’m exhausted)
I'm so fucking exhausted from walking on eggshells, pretending they don't cut like glass.
The way to you is fraught with disaster, it’s easier to walk away.
How do I explain
How much you meant
How much I cared
How much you hurt me
When every word goes unheard
And every bridge is burned
Writing, revising, trying to explain
Editing, rephrasing, an attempt to convey (I’m exhausted)
Writing, revising, trying to explain
Editing, rephrasing, an attempt to convey (I'm exhausted)
Not a single word
Was heard
Not a single word
Every bridge is burned
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8. |
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(In the past)
I've been defined by fears
Not who I am
(What I believe)
Ridiculed into absurdity
as I desperately
Await my time
(Not anymore)
Now burdened with
Glorious purpose
(Not running away)
But towards
The world I want to see
Futility breeds apathy
but I'll never stop
I won't let go
Without this
I’m aimlessly drifting in space
My existence an accident
A fluke
Unintended
I’ll go down fighting
Before I accept standing for nothing
I’ll fight till my last breath
I will see change
I‘ll live to see change
Our rights
Are locked behind a paywall
A premium
An artificial limitation of resources
Put in place for the masses
Higher purpose can be found on earth
Serving your fellow man
Don’t wait for a deity to step down
And fix the mess we made ourselves
We’ve gotta save ourselves
From the ones who call themselves peers
Won’t stop
Even if it takes a lifetime
Progress over perfection
Take steps
In the right direction
It’s better than sitting lethargic
Hoping to see the
horizon of a better tomorrow
Patron saint of lost causes
Is what they’ll call me
Fighting a hopeless war
For the bigger picture
Climate change and animals and human rights and poverty
so fucking exhausting
I’d love to be ignorant
But I’m not blind
I can see and something
Has got to change
Join forces
Build bridges
To the palaces we aim to burn down
Voice of the voiceless
Homes for the homeless
Rights for all
No one to tell you who to be or who to love
Recklessly outspoken at every turn
Searching for answers
Asking all the right questions
Not sure where we will go from here
Recklessly outspoken
Aggressively articulate
On matters more important
Vitally urgent
Teaching others empathy
Seems sisyphean
But I'll roll that boulder
Till the sun burns out
If you don't care
If you're truly
Apathetic
To all of this
Perhaps it's time for you
To carve yourself open
And see if you
have a fucking heart
Patron saint of lost causes
Is what they’ll call me
And I shall
Bear that title proudly
As I fight another day
But I'm not blind I know this
Will take an amalgamation
Of forces bigger than me so
Join forces
Build bridges
To the palaces we aim to burn down
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Kilpréz Stockholm, Sweden
One man´s mission to inject emotive sass into the complexity and aggression of mathcore and prog
metal.
Proudly outspoken for sustainability, LGBT+ rights and equality. in both music and life.
Kilpréz's second album is in the works, slated for a late 2022 release.
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